bE- tA- hAn

sorry for not updating for ages
i didn`t mean to
at least i wanted to blog but once my mum see me in front of the laptop,
she`ll shoot me

i really can`t put up with my mum lately
i know i shouldn`t talk bad about my mum
but she`s nagging me all day long
i must admit i`m not a perfect daughter
but nobody is perfect k?

look, my mum does exaggerate things, over react and over do
she`s short tempered and always bite peoples heads off ( especially mine x[ )

she hardly let me have what i want
let say, i seldom get hooked up with shoes
this afternoon, i saw a pair of shoe which i really like
then she just say it`s not suitable and ignore me

i wanted to straighten my hair
she disagree
then everyday she make a fuss about how ugly my hair looks

i wanted to get contact lenses instead of spectacles
she says i`m too young for it
no way! many people of my age have been wearing it for years!

i really hate it when i don`t get what i want
you can say that i`m misbehaving but who doesn`t?

the only thing i`ve ever bought is books
i love reading novels, but not text books
the last time i spent 128 on buying books was few weeks ago
then whenever i talk about books, she`ll nag me about how much i spent on books
even my dad says reading novels is a waste of time
he call me to read books about countries
i`m so not interested in it
i fliped

gor told me to get good results to request for things
i`ll say it won`t work
my mum doesn`t care about my results
in school, my friends used to cry when thier results didn`t reach their aim
they say that they`ll be punish by their parents
if they got good result
they`ll be rewarded
me? no punish no reward
some say that i`m " carefree"
but i still don`t like the way it goes

o, i`m missing my point
ya, my mum always scold me about how messy i am
elo, it`s not that i` messy
is that she`s too neat
for your information, she sweep and mops the floor everyday
omg
she called me to sleep in the store room
honestly, i don`t mind at all
i`m would love to move to the store room
then i`ll have a room of my very own
although it`s small,
but it`s enough for me
just me
but then she never clear out her detergent, broom, mops, paint and stuff from the store room
how am i goin to move in?

aw, i`m gonna explode sooner or later

waiting for freedom